I have written you many pointless letters I’m going to mail them anyway. Now my out look to your rules. My friend want to write you about her thoughts about everything your 1st rule- boarding school – fine – as long as it’s not loaded with drugs like the previous schools you have brought me to.
2. Friends – I don’t have any so don’t worry about it
3. I quit drugs – pot- which was all I did WAY before you could imagine – so did William. Drinking – I tell you when I got drunk, you drank with me and i don’t drink a lot.
4. Music – you can listen to all the words to the music I like – dad you liked Ozzy. I’ll stop listening to thrash. My dress stopped being rude after Lee, remember?
5. What do you think I am out here for? Building Character. You’re not even giving me a chance when I get home – straight to boarding school. I thought you wanted to be a family or at least try. I guess you don’t. I have changed and you’re not gonna even give me a chance if you send me away as soon as I get home. Positive attitude – what about you? You sent me out here to change and I have but you don’t care to meet the real me. You want to send the “bad seed” way. Don’t deny it dad, you said it yourself. Why can’t you let me prove to you I’ve changed? I don’t see how I can be cooperative upon my return if you just gonna send me away again.
Do you realize that the councilors that brought me to the hospital listens to the same music I do? So you want me to stop listening to music that keeps me going out here. Why don’t you just listen to my music take it out and listen. Don’t you even know how to listen – LISTEN. In your day your parents probably didn’t like your music either. My music isn’t bad at all.
About the sex deal. I’m not a nympho. I messed up with Lee- ya bigtime. But I cared for-loved William. He has helped me so much. I want to know – did you even give William his letters? I don’t think you did. I just want to know. Don’t you realize I’ve changed? So, maybe I’m not everything you want me to be. I probably never will be. Tell you the truth – I don’t care as long as I am healthy and happy. You say I am gone when I am 18 – try 15 you’re going to keep sending me away, we are strangers now. What’s going to happen if you’re not going to give me the chance to get to know you? How can you even begin to understand me when I am 3000 miles away? Great family we turned out to be and you wouldn’t even let me help make us a real family.
And you can blame everything on Will, me and my music. I have been confused since I can remember…and right as I decide and understand life, you screw me up again. Thank you very much.
July 5 – Stacy’s letter to my dad
We (the children at the Rehabilitation program called Challenger) feel strongly about the misunderstood treatment of your daughter. We feel that you (as a father) a controlling and manipulating role (which you play) has been heavily abused within the boundaries of rules which have been revealed to Nadine. We all have dads and we know what we are talking about. You see, You have just lost full control over your daughter, so, you are doing everything in your power to gain that control back, by suffocating her with rules. You’re not giving her the chance of expressing her feelings and sharing her new changed self with you. You see no hope, pure negative thoughts cross your mind when you imagine her living with you. As yourself, Mr. Guerrera, what’s really troubling my daughter, what can I really do to help her? Is a boarding school the answer, is changing her character and stripping her of her past identity really the answer to your prayers? Maybe I can sit down and talk things out and learn more about my daughter? Mr. Guerrera, rules aren’t always the answer. Daddy is.